Quick rant about life...

In the past couple of weeks I've been struggling. A lot.

When I first took this job at the mill I moved in with my parents to be closer to the job because James and I only have one car + the scooter. So, we haven't been seeing each other much and things are not well.

We've been fighting a ton lately. I'm getting my ass handed to me with this job, he's working his butt off in his job. We see each other rarely and when we do see each other all we do is scream.

Things aren't going any better on the "home" front.

 I want to have a very small wedding. Like 50 people. My father thinks I should invite everyone I've ever met and their parents (CAUTION: interpret exaggeration at your own risk).

I want to have the reception for my very small wedding in my parents large backyard, under a tent. My father would prefer to pay for a venue.

Needless to say, IT'S MY FUCKING WEDDING (CAUTION: call me bridezilla at your own risk).

So, all we do is scream at each other.

I want this marriage to work so much because I love him more than anything and he's my best friend, but how will we get through this life together if we can't even make it through this summer?

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On Being Thankful 

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First day in new job.

I'm too nervous to think straight.

I hope it goes well!

Deep Breath In

So, I've been all over the place lately and I totally need some sort of outlet for life!

Hey look!

A blog....

I managed to score a job in my father's paper mill for the summer. It's full time kick ass work that will *hopefully* get me in tip-top shape for the wedding.

Oh yeah... the wedding. Crap. Now how am I going to plan?

I'm probably not going to be posting much very often because I'll be working a lot.

And when I'm not working I'll be wedding planning!

Maybe all this will help get our dreams back on track.

:)

Odds & Ends

• I think we finally settled out some details for the wedding venue. It's this beautiful little chapel with an out door court yard that is completely picturesque. When James and I toured it I even teared up!
• The baby is SOOOOOO cute. For those of you keeping score at home he's got our side's ugly feet!

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I JUST WANT TO DANCE!!! +Haiku Mondays

I'm so excited.

Wait until you hear the news.

My life is changing.

So, we heard back from the Air Force regarding James' enlistment.....

and (drum roll please...)

HE'S IN!!!!!

That's two good things in a row this week! :)

Now we just anxiously wait to here WHEN he leave for BMT.

So there's this baby...

The count down began 9 months ago, and we've all been anxiously awaiting the birth of my nephew. Between talks of whose ugly feet he'll get and whether he'll have the maternal family double chin or not everyone was very excited. He would be the first Grand-baby in our family. It was a particularly rough pregnancy for the first time parents. Both of them told us for years they never wanted to have kids, then that suddenly changed. They did try to get pregnant but I imagine both of them had a few second thoughts along the way. Nicole had morning sickness throughout, ended up in the ER twice because of dehydration, and towards the end developed toxicity. Between the worry about the baby's health and Nicole's health my brother, Matthew, was a wreck.

Monday was the due date. Tuesday they went in for a check up and discovered something funky with the babies heart beat. Not the good king of funky either. The doctors decided to induce labor Wednesday morning. After 16 hours in the hospital, Monster was born at 10:38pm, June 1st, 2001.

7lbs 2oz, 21.5 inches

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