It's been a hard day's night -take 2

So, I've been working at my father's mill for 16 days straight and they are saying it's going to be another 45 before we have a day off. fml.

I've been neglecting this blog horribly, and right after I promised not to leave!

I hate this job. Don't get me wrong it's great money and it'll really help pay for the wedding, however I feel that it simply isn't worth the sacrifice. I never see my fiance, I'm completely burned out, I'm angry and snappy because of it... I would give anything to be monetarily motivated, but I'm just plain not. I don't know how much longer this can last.

Odds & Ends

• My bridal shower is in a month and I'm not ready... I don't even know if I'll be able to get off work. :(
• I finally finished my application for the new college I want to transfer too.
• Monster is doing great! He has sooooo much hair! It makes him look older than he is already. 

Wordless Wednesday

Our Engagement Photo

Quick rant about life...

In the past couple of weeks I've been struggling. A lot.

When I first took this job at the mill I moved in with my parents to be closer to the job because James and I only have one car + the scooter. So, we haven't been seeing each other much and things are not well.

We've been fighting a ton lately. I'm getting my ass handed to me with this job, he's working his butt off in his job. We see each other rarely and when we do see each other all we do is scream.

Things aren't going any better on the "home" front.

 I want to have a very small wedding. Like 50 people. My father thinks I should invite everyone I've ever met and their parents (CAUTION: interpret exaggeration at your own risk).

I want to have the reception for my very small wedding in my parents large backyard, under a tent. My father would prefer to pay for a venue.

Needless to say, IT'S MY FUCKING WEDDING (CAUTION: call me bridezilla at your own risk).

So, all we do is scream at each other.

I want this marriage to work so much because I love him more than anything and he's my best friend, but how will we get through this life together if we can't even make it through this summer?

Wordless Wednesday

On Being Thankful 

P.S. -I do not own, nor claim any writes to this image. All credit to: http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/2coVrf/fc08.deviantart.net/fs71/f/2010/076/6/0/605b7d3c66c2dc9470fd939b2011ac0e.png

Haiku Mondays

First day in new job.

I'm too nervous to think straight.

I hope it goes well!